As i was on my way home from church just now, i met my neighbours and their family. Grandfather, grandmother, son-in-law, daughter and three little grandchildren, a boy and 2 girls. The little boy was so adorable and so was the girls... i loved the way their eyes sparkled with innocence =) As we reached the 16 storey, we met another neighbour and his family, with two little cute boys. Another happy family, i thought. Then i thought of myself, having my own family and spending such quality time with them. But after disclosing that secret nothing will be the same again. I failed my job as a lover and let
him down. And once again i trusted the wrong guy and im sure
his impression of me is much worst now... What have i done to deserve this? Well... i can't blame anyone else for trusted that guy so easily... Just have to blame myself for being so gullible... But who could have thought that he was a wolf in sheeps clothing? Why didn't i suspect it in the first place? Why didn't i go with my initial instinct? Why did i lead myself further and further away? I have failed once again... I wonder if there is still any chance to go back to the past... Where everything was going so smoothly... I shouldn't have taken that step... Now i've fallen so deep and i dunno how to climb back up... Why must the person that i trusted so much betray me not once but twice, thrice... No words can describe how i feel... Why must one love, when it hurts so much???
