just finshed my OBS essay... *phew* so tired... i want to sleep... but i still got to learn my ting xie... haha... so guai rite? haha... i decided to start of anew and do a good deed to my ever lovely mum... i dun wan her to get high blood pressure and leave this world first... nonono... i dun wan that to happen... so i'll be a good girl... do my work... then she will be very happy... then i oso happy... then the whole world very happy... haha... almost the whole world la... i haven't been blogging for such a long time... i oso dunno what to blog... just that im damn bored now... and there are no nice programmes on tv so im blogging... haiz... im so sad... so sad... just quarreled with someone whom i could say is one of my best frens... but she backstabbed me...okay... not really backstab but would you hug and say i luv you to someone whom you tell other ppl that you hate her? abit contradicting rite? well... i decided not to fren her... haha... im so childish... but yea... i dun deserve someone like her... or she dun deserve to have me... i thought i could trust her... so i told her my secrets, let her know my frens, play pranks with her on my frens and pretending i dunno... we had so much fun together... but who could have thought that she actually hated me... another i can't stand is if you dun have any one who likes you... its is okay... no guys like me too... i dun have any guy frens to go out with too... but do you have to lie? abt all those guy frens that like you and give you stuff? plzzz... we have not even seen them... and your always in a rush to get us out of the way if your meeting "them"... okay... maybe ur afraid that we might steal him away or what... but dun you even trust us? ur frens? and since "he" is willing to break up with "his" gf to be with you... he wouldn't fall for another girl rite? so are you lying or do you not trust us? to think that i believed you... all those freaking lies that you said... if it wasn't for other ppl... i would know that you were lying all along... i wouldn't know that im treating someone who doesn't even like me as a fren... i dun think it is being fair to me... okay... you can blame me for being so niave as to believe you... but what do you think made me believe in you? cuz ur my fren... and you always treat me so "nice"... i really really thought maybe the other ppl were just lying to me abt you so i didn't really bother till now... i've finally seen through you... pull whoever you wan to ur side... i dun really bother... i can be the lonely freak if you wan me to... but i know that my true frens with stick with me through thick and thin... and they wun leave me and i wun leave them too... maybe you think that im being too impluse... but i dun think so... i've thought of it... and i really can't trust someone who may not even trust me... i'm still thinking if i should tell ivan peh abt all that has happened... you better hope i wun... or if you think that he would be on ur side no matter what then dun need to hope liao lor... haiz... i really miss the days we had together... but there is no turning back... like all my other frens that i have quarreled with... none of them bothers abt me... not even when i msg them... and i know you will become like them... oh yea... another think i can't stand nor seat abt you is the fact that you suck up to teachers, parents and whoever who maybe of good use to you... why can't you just do things on your own account... you dun need ppl to pull strings for you... ur not useless... ur doing so well in ur studies and stuff.... haiz... good luck to you... wish you all the best...
