im gonna breakdown anytime now... i feel so sad... so so so sad... im trying to concerntrate on my studies to not think abt it but i can't... i just think abt him... will i ever get to let go of him? i hope so... i dun wan to go on like this the rest of my life... its hurts so badly... its all my fault... i shouldn't have done that... if i didn't do that.. you would not have broken up with me... but its no use for all this now rite? its been almost 6 months since we broke up... but im still missin you so badly... i guess you dun miss me rite? you have a nice and pretty gf... i guess you dun even remember abt what had happened to us... like the time we went pass this really pretty condo and you said that if i liked it you would buy the whole building down for me... i really hate myself for doing that and making you so upset... okay... im not sure if your upset anot... but i am... i've been so terribly upset for the past half a year... im too afriad to msg you... but sometimes i bring myself to do it and ur reply makes my day so much nicer... but it usually doesn't seem very friendly... it seems like cryin myself to sleep isn't goin to work much longer... you should go get some sleeping pills for me... gonna try msgin you now... luv ya always...
