just had a dream... andy was inside... wearing a blue shirt with white stripes... still as cute as ever... pretended not to see him... and toked to my collegue... haiz... i miss him... but he doesn't miss me... he likes this girl in his class... but im happy for him to be able to find his happiness... wish him all the best... i was so surprised that he replied my msg the other day... i tot he wouldn't... i was so elated... lol... i learned a new word... i couldn't really blame him for our break up and everything... i could only blame myself... stupid me... i didn't treasure him when he was around... i tot it would last long... but... haiz... its all my fault... now its too late... it was too late long long ago... i really hope that we can actually become friends again... being able to see and tok to him is good enough for me... i dun need him to be by my side all the time... just being able to know that he is happy is the best thing that could have happened to me... i thought i have fallen in love with someone else... but... andy... haiz... you changed my life... i've learnt to respect myself... i did slip off that for awhile... but its always you that kept me up... oh... why am i toking abt this... lol... we have zi du 2mlw... and a maths test on tues... and e maths test on wens... so stressed... lol... but i'll jia you cuz you asked me to... and of cuz not to disappoint my parents who have such high hopes for me... im more matured now thanxs to everyone... i dun wan to be the stupid small little girl i used to be... i wanna grow up... and do good to the society... lol... im looking abit too far...
