sorry for being so naive...
sorry for believing everything you said...
sorry for luving you so much...
sorry for not being able to let you go...
sorry for letting you take over my mind...
sorry for everything that happened between us...
everything was just a mistake...
haiz... this song still goes to you... i finally knew the truth... finally... why did it take me so long... why? i'm so naive for thinking that you liked me... and you really want to be together with me... i'm so naive for believing all the sweet sms on how you couldn't bare to leave me and you hope that we would last long... i'm so damn naive... but finally i know... that you dun luv me... you never ever did... and you luv another girl... woah... i really took a really long time rite? more than a month aft we broke up... aren't i silly... and to think that i would do things that i were so dumb... i would always message you... and wait for ur reply like an idiot... and if you do reply... i'm so damn happy... i would go online and check if ur online... and i try not to go offline until you go offline first... haiz... ya... i bet that that girl that you like is really pretty and smart and understanding... and probably not a flirt too... i should have known that you wouldn't like a girl like me... i'm not ur type... at all... haiz... ya... at least now that i know the truth... i can go on with my life... ya... maybe we are still frens... i'll still wish you all the best on wooing that girl... i know there are still many things that i got to go find out myself... haiz... why can't you just tell me everything and stop keeping me in the dark... i still haven't found out why you had to play with me in the first place... can you tell me? please... i really want to know what made you do such a thing to hurt someone... you should have told me before we got started... so that the impact wouldn't be that great... oh... if you wanted to play with me... you can't say rite? ya... i get it... but... woah... your acting skills are great... to think that i couldn't see through it... yesterday night... i felt something that i haven't felt in a long time... heart ache... i hurt so badly... i could not sleep... but i finally got myself to close my eyes... wipe of the tears... and go to sleep... i was thinking... abt you... and me... the times we had to together... it seem so great... the only time that we toked to each other so much... but thanxs... thanxs for making my memories with my first boyfriend so sweet and nice... i'll never forget abt it... give me some time... i'll give up on you... i will... like how i did with the other two guys i luved so much... i did take me a few years... but at least i did give up... i dun think you will ever know how much you mean to me... how many friendships i have given up for you... how much tears have flown for you... maybe we will become like how me and jonathan have become now... i used to like him so much... and cried alot when he used to scold and call me rude names... gave up alot of things for him too... but now we are good friends... play games and go out to play pool together... ya... we could do that too... aft i give up on you...
PaPa... i never forget abt you... i'm so sorry i did so many things to hurt you cuz of andy... i know sorry cannot sure what i have done to you... but... i'm gonna give up on andy... i'm determined... you will help me along rite?
