ahhhhh... i feel so betrayed today... darius was at my house today... to collect the letter that min ru wanted me to pass to him... finally could get close to him and have a one on one chat... but we didn't really tok much... just left him alone to write his reply to min ru's letter... later on... i have a new fren... his name is_____... i cannot say... cuz i dun wan darius and the others to go look for him and do the same thing they did to ivan... the ____ told me that darius was toking bad abt me... and even andy joined in too... darius... toking bad abt me is like the third time i heard it... but andy... never tot that he would tok bad abt me... i feel so sad and cheated... i tot he liked me... i tot he liked me as much as i like him... and he would help me if someone was to tok bad abt me... but he didn't.... he joined in too... ahhhhh.... my classmates know that i like andy... they always say that he is soo hooligan and stuff... sometimes i will tok bck... sometimes i will just keep quiet and pretend that i didn't hear it... i would never join to to tok bad stuff abt andy... i'm kinda protective abt him... well... it seems like all that he said to me... like he misses me and that he feels the same way abt me is all fake... he is just lying to me... i feel so hurt... i wanna cry... but my sis is making me laugh... haha... well.. i'll never trust anyone liao... i got bluffed soo many times... i feel so confused on who to trust and who is not to be trusted... who really loves me? who??? i think the only one i can trust know is some of my friends and my parents... yeah...
i'm not going for the drama concert thingy cuz it is like 40 dollar plus and my "good" frens think that i can't afford it... so they didn't ask the teacher to get a ticket for me... hiaz... teacher told them that we need to see at least 2 plays in a year... but i haven't even went for one... except for those acs thingy that my "good" frens drag me to... and now i owe sammie 60 dollars for the tickets... i'm never ever going for any stupid barker or wadever thing with you all already... anyway... now you have leon... you can go with him.... i dun give a damn... i'm in a really bad mood today... just like____...
