haha... finally it is another weekend... and i can sleep much longer liao... soo damn tired and stress from school... and haven't been blogging for such a long time... do you ppl miss me?? haha... well... i'm damn bored now... nobody to tok to... but i'm gonna to blog first then go study... which is supposed to be my main piority now... haha... but i'm not studying... as usual... so bad rite? i feel like hitting myself cuz nobody hits me for being bad... haha... so i have to do it myself... well... never mind... my gastric pains are doing it for me... and they really do *0uCh* hurt... i think i need to go to see the doctor very soon for some painkillers... or i will die of pain.. can't sleep... can't eat... can't go to sch... oh ya... that will be a very good reason for me to not go to sch... haha... but i have a science test on monday... and a chinese test on tuesday... so maybe i will use it on wens or thurs... nonono.. i have drama on thurs and they are going to start auditioning for the minor roles... i wanted to be rachel... but i didn't go for the last drama lesson... so i didn't sign up... and i also didn't go and take the script cuz i was doing my shu xing... haha... well... there goes my chance... but even if i did audition for the character... there was so many other girls that were soo good... they cried and acted soo well... i was soo amazed... well... so there are ppl out there who are better than me... me and samantha could remember the whole script for rachel's part and we were reciting it when the ppl were auditioning... ms chua and ms see did not look very happy and kept staring at us... sheesh... so smc+baker are going to audition for the four frens... even thou one of the frens would be rachel which means someone not from our grp... but we will still try our best... we will do it... then we are going to listen to melissa lynn's chanting as usual... sammie's reading without expression... melissa lee's "best" and me... the best... haha... i'm so ego... well... i'm not the best when compared to the rest of the drama girls... especially our seniors.... we can't even be compared to some of our juniors... damn it... well... i think as long as we try our best... and do what we think is the best... we still can make it... yes we will!
i was just called a flirt by someone a few days ago... i was soo upset... he told me that right in the face leh.... cuz i asked him why didn't he asked me to go orchard library to study too... and he told me:"Ask you for wat? so that you can go and flirt?" i was soo angry... that i stomped off into my room.. and never came out untill he left... we do you call me a flirt when you flirt too... i'm so upset now... fine... i'm a flirt... give me some examples to prove that i am... maybe is the way i tok... maybe is the way i behave... tell me... so that i wun do it again... maybe sometimes i'm a bit touchy and crappy... but is that flirt? i'm just trying to be friendly... and i end up being called a flirt... now my reputation in outram sec is in a mess... even royston hates me now... everyone thinks that i am a flirt.. a bimbo... a slut... a betrayer... but am i? i dunno... maybe cuz of somethings in the past that made you feel that i'm such a bitch but can you just stop and take a look at me now? maybe i am not that bad... and if you think i am even worst now... then its ok... but if you wanna just suddenly stop toking to me cuz you found out abt my past and stuff... and you please tell me why you hate me so much instead of keeping me in the dark... thanxs ppl... but please try not to hate me... let me show you the better side if me before you make a decision...
~*[its not good to hate a person]~*
~*[unless you have a very good reason]*~
