recently... i started missing one of my guy frens that used to like me... i sudddenly remembered all the times we had together and how happy we were... he gave me this bear... i gave him a bookmark and card... i still have the bear... i wonder if he still has the card and bookmark... i dun think so... i think he has fogotten abt me... hiaz... its been such a long time.. i'm sure he has... nvm... i dun really miss him as badly as i did a few nights ago.. but the times we had together... was one of my most memorable days... i miss those days... even though we did not really tok to each other.. it was just the type of silent happiness... oh... makes me wanna cry when i think abt it... haha... whatever... just that i can't remember any other guy that made me feel so special... hiaz.. but now... he has turned very bad... not only defiant.. he doesn't study anymore... learned to smoke... played games until the next morning... he is a really naughty boy now... i wanna guide him back... but when i sms him... he doesn't reply... i dun wanna call him... i'm afraid he will just "kup" the phone... i dunno what to do... i also heard that he has a gf liao.. think it was the girl behide him the other day.... slim... and looks quite ok.. hiaz... anyone who is slim is better than me la... think he has found his true happiness liao... true happiness cannot be found on me... thats why he went on with his life... i hope the others can do so too...
today... there is drama... but i tot today was friday... hahaha... stupid me... i even had miss "c" call me up to tell me that i had to go for drama... wahaha... well.. i didn't go for the other lesson too... cuz i had gastric pains... i've got a letter... but i think i need an mc... hiaz... who cares... i dun care... hahaha... when miss "c" called me... i could hear the drama girls in the background doing the "ommmmm" thingy... so funny... meditating early in the morning... haha... we used to do that during pe.. haha... miss school... but i haven't done any of my hw... so i dun wanna go to sch... anyway... when sch starts... exams will start too... :'( dun wanna have exams... i have been slacking alot... can't get myself back to studying... going to fail really badly this year... i'm gonna be the only retainee this year... maybe not... maybe they will just expell me for being soo dumb... ya... they could just do that... anyway i dun wanna stay in sc... stressful... but i'll miss all my frens... hiaz... i've got a bad reputation in sch... for talking back to teachers... or maybe only miss seah and miss dong... for being very very forgetful... and being part of the bimbo gang... many ppl say that we acbc... act chio bui chio... but please la... those ppl who always complain abt us... are not say very pretty also... and they keep saying that we take up the whole toilet... plzzz... we are always just in one corner... and nowadays we dun really go anymore... cuz got this naggy ah ma here... always breathing down their necks... but sometimes cannot stand them for being so slow... i'll just go off myself... haha... but no matter how bimbotic you are... or how many ppl tell me to stop hanging out with you alll... i'll still love you all and still be a pain in the neck fren... haha...
